Beginning of a memory.......

So, here I am writing to myself. I decided after viewing a lot of blogs from different people I would finally start one. I guess you could call me new to it all, only because I never really got into the whole blogging thing. But I figured now would be a good time. I'm going to try and write as much as I can on here and post pictures of things we do, meaning my daughter and I mostly. I want a diary of sorts to keep, easy to remember things that way; my baby can also look at it when she gets older. By the way, her name is Lilian Marie, almost two now. Time is going by so fast since she was born, I feel like I'm in fast forward. All the things i wanted to do in life were put on hold when she arrived. I thought I had all the time in the world to get the things I wanted to do accomplished; after she was born I feel like I'm trying to catch up. I'm 22 years old and feel like I'm 35. Sad, isn't it? I could blame my situation on my background and childhood I suppose, born poor and destined to be poor. I refuse to end up like that; my daughter will not live like I did. I didn't have it all bad though. My mother loved my brother and I a lot and tried her best to give us something; having MS put quite a strain on motherhood. She had always done everything with a smile though, and never showed weakness or sadness when we were around. I think I admire her in that, and strive to be like her, in that way anyways. She also made some very bad mistakes and I feel sometimes my brother paid the price, out of the two of us he is the more affected. I somehow came out mostly un-scratched by it all. I aim to avoid the mistakes my mother made, and learn from them to make a better life for my children. i am by no means perfect, don't get me wrong. I wish I had maybe done things a little differently, but the past is where it shall stay; all I can do is look forward and make choices to better our future. So anyways, I'll write about our daily lives and what we do. how lilian is progressing and my relationship with my boyfriend at times. Sad or happy, mad or glad; nothing is off-limits when it comes to affairs of the heart. Enjoy :)